The Start Of A Struggle

This was when I was in my 4th class. Learnt a lot from this incident. It was when i knew very little about how hard the life can be on u. It was when i thought tht falure is the biggest disgrace to nebdy. It was my turn to taste one. As we say at this tender age people r not that capable wat is a major or a minor failures, they think failure is failure. the same was the case with me. this is how it went on.
The Day When It All Happened.
My Class.
Me: Hey Rakesh kya chal raha hai yaar?
Rakesh: Aaj Match hai apna aur E1 ke bich mein.
Me: Toh Team tayyar hai ki nahi.
Rakesh: Aaj mein nahi khel raha aur Suraj bhi nahi hai. Mujhe samaj mein nahi aa raha ki kise captain banaoon. Ek Kam karega yaar tu hi ek apne group se bacha hai tu banega captain.
Me: Arey par mein logon ko sambhal nahi payaega.
Rakesh: Arey koi bat nahi mujhe apne group ko chodkar kisi aur ko captain nahi banana.
Me: Thik magar kaun tayyar ho ga mere under khelne. Sabko pata hai mein kaisa hoon.
Rakesh: Mein logon ko bolunga ab thik.
this was the first time i spoke to nebdy for such a long time in my school days. Usually a dumbo kind of boy, keeps silence n never talk much. When it came to team selection i selected the best of our team, the biggest mistake n lesson. They never heard me on the feild as i expected it to be. Some conversation that i remember.
The Game:
Me: mein pehla over daloonga. Mein captain hoon. Aaj meri baat sunna hoga tum logon ko.
The Fielder: Han chal thik hai dal dekhte hai kya karta hai.
Balls:1 2 3 4 5 6
Runs:0 2 4 4 4 6.
After that as expected no 1 cared to listen to me and the eventual result was forward we lost by 48 runs a very big defeat margin that we had ever had. First match as a captain is still on my mind lingerin as a bad memory for many years until i understood it is to learn from failure not mean it as a disgrace. When we came back to the class no one was talking to me. It was like this for almost 1 month. When they spoke they used to say i was the reason for our loss. This news was spreading everywhere in the school. It was my brother who heard about it and asked me about it when we were comin back home one day.
Bhai: Kya hua Vicky tumhara naam kyun log le rahe hai?
Me: Kahan?
Bhai: School mein.
Me: Kya? mein kuch samjha nahi?
Bhai: Meine sirf itna suna kii tum captain they aur doosre team ke liye khel rahe they.
Me: Kya? this is not true. It is something different.
Bhai: Kya hua abhi bataega tum ya nahi??
Me: Ok. I told him the whole story and after reaching home he told dad.
It was the time when i was boycotted by my whole class they never spoke to me for a month but in that one month i learnt a lot of things that usually no body learn in that age goin school no one to tlk with when u r so young. I learnt to be alone. Hard to start with but fun if u get accustomed. On the first 2 days i felt like crying but never allowed my tears role down and show i m weak, very egoistic i was, never wanted to show i m weak if i feel that made me a bit too strong now, thats not good either.
Neways i know this is not exactly the place to show up with these all things n i m sure it is not really interesting and a bit of incompleteness to it. Ne how i will try to make it a complete look.
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